"'For I know the plans I have for you,' declares the Lord, 'plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future.'" Jeremiah 29:11
Tomorrow morning I am flying to Orlando. The purpose of this trip: Buy a house. At least, that was the purpose of the trip when I booked the ticket 3 weeks ago. But sometimes plans change. And sometimes I don't like the change. Sometimes I actually hate the change, and can do nothing but acknowledge that God is God and I am not. He knows what He is doing, and He knows that the plans He has for me are for my good, whether I like them or not.
I won't go into specifics, but due to a bizarre set of circumstances, a recent change in Florida mortgage law, and a really horrid company called Wells Fargo Home Mortgage, we are not able to get a new home loan until January.
So, Plan B involves finding a rental property that is $1000/month or less, will allow us to have our cats, is in one of our preferred school districts, and will be available August 1st.
Honestly, I don't even know what to feel about this trip. Instead of having a realtor doing all the work and setting up showings for me, I am on my own. No realtor to make the phone calls. No realtor to drive me around town. Just me, exploring a new place in my little rental car, and trying to get appointments set up to look at rentals. I am so tired, so stressed out by this.
All I can really do is lean on God. I have no strength, no ability to do this on my own. In fact, I'm beginning to wonder if maybe God planned it this way in order to remind me to rely on Him completely. He has firmly closed doors to us buying a house right now, and I just need to keep in mind that God does indeed see the future, and I can't. He knows the outcome of this trip, and I don't. He has a home picked out for us, even as I will be trying to find it. He is already in Florida. He has called us there. He will go with me to Florida, and will give me wisdom and guidance while I am there. God is just so cool like that!
I feel like recently my blog has been a bulletin board of Emily's prayer requests. But I understand the power of prayer, and I am so thankful to know that the people who are reading this are praying for me. Thanks, y'all. The end of this journey is in sight. Thanks for praying me through the thick of it.