In the midst of so many wonderful things that are happening in our family right now, there is a generous portion of grief as well.
Remember my friend Bev? The precious woman who battled leukemia for 5 years? Many of you faithfully prayed for her, and even sent cards and gifts. Bev was ushered into the presence of Jesus last week. I received the call as I was playing in the pool with my three new girls.
Grief and Joy in the same moment. How does a heart process them together? My eyes were the floodgate that released the flow.
Right now, someone who is very dear to me is waiting in the hospital to deliver a tiny baby girl. A very tiny baby girl, who died 20 weeks into the pregnancy. The induction was scheduled to begin at 9:00. It is 9:50 right now, and they have to sit and wait for nurses to become available for the induction. All the nurses are occupied assisting in other deliveries. Deliveries of healthy, full-term babies. Babies that my dear one is hearing as they cry their first cries. She will have to go through labor and delivery too, but the outcome will be silent.
Grief. My heart constricts and my eyes overflow again.
Just outside the window, my two littlest girls are joyfully playing on this warm, summer morning. I am so thankful for them.